The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here
- Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

All of the above. And maybe none at all. I just kinda miss writting. I kinda miss being able to have thoughts that actully add up to something.

But seriously, that one year since last post is really scary.

Guess the first thing I should do is look into updating the WordPress engine that runs this & get a new theme. Not really looking forward to messing with CSS, plug-in’s & wigets to get things just the way I want them. But the neglect that been going on here is just horrible.

Therefore I give you, “How To Break Up With Your Girlfriend in 64 easy steps”:

“The basic tool for the manipulation of reality is the manipulation of words. If you can control the meaning of words, you can control the people who must use the words.”
-Philip K. Dick

Control people not in the sense of directly physically controlling them, but more of affecting the readers emotions and thoughts.

Giving them something to think about.

So to all males who have finished the initial National Service period, it is an established fact of life that we will end up making that annual trek back to back to the Sea of Green. Just like a school of green clad Salmon swimming back to familiar pools for the solo purpose of spawning off-color jokes in Hokkien.

Personally, I use it as a way to re-familiarize myself with my usual enviroments like home or work, to break up the routine so to speak. Very much like going on a vacation while on leave. But while a normal vacation is usually to refresh oneself leaving you reluctant to go back to your normal life, I like to take Reservisit as a time were almost no rest is gained and to remind myself not to take for granted what I have already been blessed with.

Be it food, or accommodation’s or being out of touch with one’s friends, I try to use it to refresh my personal view. And since my Reservist seem to now be set to fall in the beginning of the year, it would be easy to just count it as the point where my New Year really starts in the future.

The thing I find strange is that I expect myself to actually write more during this time, since I there are much less distractions. But somehow that doesn’t seem to happen. I know that a fair share of reflection is done during such times but it all seems to be…”internalize” and I can’ seem to put in down in paper somehow.

But I know changes took place and that it paves the way for the rest of the year. It will be interesting to see things unfold, reacting to the new re-alignments that have taken place within.